To Write Love On Her Arms …

Posted: January 24, 2010 in Uncategorized
Friday, June 08, 2007
To Write Love On Her Arms…

Current mood: thoughtful Category: Life

Some of you may have noticed that among my friends I have a couple of groups you might want to know about. One of them is the self injury help page… and the other is an organization called “To Write Love On Her Arms.” Both are groups who are trying to reach out to kids who might be sucidal, depressed or involved with cutting or other forms of self injury. All this is much more common today than I think most people think. The Goo Goo dolls had a song a few years ago that talked about “you bleed just to know you’re alive.”

When I was in my childhood and teens, I grew up in a very unhealthy abusive environment. To say I was wounded and traumatized by it all was an understatement. I have damage in both of my wrists from punching walls at times of utter desperation and rage. I always tell the students I teach now that’s a really bad idea when it comes to using your hands to play an instrument.

I am very aware when I use my hands to play music or write or some of the other things that I do, that it’s much better for me to use them for something that brings about beauty and healing for others. I am also aware of what a miracle it is that I literally lived through that, and that my hands, or the rest of me for that matter are functioning.

A few weeks ago in the midst of the worst of the medical stuff with Ken and the other stress and emotional pain I was experiencing I just snapped and slammed my fists repeatedly into one of the doors. It took several days to recover from that. I could have seriously injured myself at that point. It has been a long time since I did anything like that. It was a good reminder that sometimes pain and my own humanity can be overwhelming, and that I still need to deal with it in a different healthy way.

I am thankful that I have friends who love me and who can be a help and a comfort in times like that. It was also a reminder to be aware of the pain that some of my younger students feel. I’ve included a link to a video here that was inspired by “To Write Love On Her Arms.” For anyone who spends time with kids, learn to look for the warning signs. Love them and encourage them to get the help they need. It was a good thing for this band to be willing to record this song and to offer a different perspective. I wish there was someone in my life when I was young who could have helped me. For anyone who struggles with this feel free to message me. There is so much hope even if you don’t feel it right now.

The link to the video is below. It is a great music video. I would warn you it is pretty graphic in it’s content though, but very moving.


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